no longer friends

You cut me real deep
When you left me alone
No thoughts of me you'll keep
Your heart is made of stone
You go your way
And I'll go mine
I wish you would stay
I will not make the same mistake next time
I cry throughout the long harsh nights
My soul starts to decay
The chilling night air bites
Now I am wasted away
I cry out with every fiber of my being
Your stare hits me like an icy blast
Since you do not care and are unseeing
I am now just part of the past

IDK WAT 2 DO

OK FORGET THE FACT THAT WE BOTH JUST HAD KIDS....... AND HE HAS A BABYMAMA AND I HAVE A BABYDADDY

SO I KNOW HE LOVES ME AND I FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT HIM BUT LATELY I HAVE BEEN THINKING THAT WE NEED TO MOVE APART AND IT HURTS ME TO MOVE AWAY FROM HIM CUZ LIKE I SAID AGM IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE I FEEL THAT HE IS MY SOUL MATE AND I KNEW WE YOUNG AND WHATEVER BUT THAT BOY HAS ALWAYS HAD ME OPEN.. WELL I HAVENT TALKED TO HIM SINCE HIS BABY MAMA PUT HIM OUT AND I JUST HAPPEN TO TEXT HIM LIKE THE DAY BEFORE MY SON WAS DUE AND HE TOLD ME THAT SHE HAD THE BABY AT FIRST THAT HURT ME CUZ HE DIDNT CALL AND TELL ME HE SAID HE PUT IT ON FACEBOOK BUT WE TALKED ABOUT THIS AND HE SAID HE WOULD CALL AND LET ME KNOW AND I WOULD DO THE SAME WHEN MY BABY WAS BORN.. BUT I HAD ALREADY MADE UP MY MINE THAT WHEN ARE KIDS WERE DUE THAT I WOULD STOP TALKING TO HIM FOR ONE THIS GIRL HAS SOMETHING THAT ME AND HIM WOULD NEVER HAVE AND THATS HIS FIRST CHILD AND THE SAME FOR ME... WELL HE CALLED ME YESTERDAY AND ASKED MY HAVENT I CALLED HIM (I USE TO GET ON HIM ALL THE TIME BOUT NOT CALLING ME) AND I DIDN'T WONT TO TELL HIM THE REASON WHY FOR ONE ALL MY FAMILY WAS AROUND AND IT WAS'T THE TIME OR PLACE TO TALK ABOUT THAT... SO HE CALLED ME TO DAY PLAYING TREY "I NEED A GIRL" AND ME BEING TEFLON HAD TO SING THAT SONG NOT TO HIM BUT JUST SINGING LIKE I ALWAYS DO... AND HE ASKED ME AGING WHY I STOP CALLING HIM AND I TOLD HIM I'LL CALL HIM LATER CUZ I WAS'T READY TO GET INTO ALL THAT.. AGM IS MY HEART AND I WAS SCARED TO TELL HIM CUZ IT'S HURTING ME SO I KNOW IT WILL HURT HIM LIKE RIGHT NOW I'M OVER HERE IN TEARS CUZ I'M SACRED THAT I'M BOUT TO LOSE MY BEST FRIEND WHEN I TELL HIM THAT I HAVE TO STOP TALKING TO HIM CUZ I DONT LIKE HIS BABYMAMA AND I CANT TAKE TALKING TO HIM CUZ OF HIS BABY AND I KNOW I MIGHT SOUND CRAZY BEING THAT I HAVE A SON TO BUT THAT'S THE REASON WHY I NEED TO STOP TALKING TO HIM MORE FOR THE KIDS THAT WE BOTH HAVE... HE CALL'S ME ALL THE TIME TALKING BOUT HOW MUCH HE CANT STAND HIS BABYMAMA AND I TELL HIM HOW MUCH I CANT STAND MY SONS FATHER.. .. O0O YEA SO HE WAS BACK IN DETROIT FOR LIKE A FEW DAYS AND I CALLED HIM WE TALKED FOR BOUT 40 MIN WHATEVER SO WE ALWAYS SAY I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHOS AROUND SO I SAID I LOVE HE TOLD ME "ALRIGHT" I WAS SO READY TO GO OVER HIS CUZIN HOUSE AND KICK HIS ASS BUT I COULDN'T DO THAT LOL.... SO THE DAY MY SON WAS DUE ME AND HIM TALKED AND WE GOT OFF THE PHONE AND HE SAID I LOVE SO I SAID YUUUUP HE GOT LIKE PISSED AND WENT OFF ON ME FOR NOT SAYING I LOVE YOU AND I TOLD HIM THE OTHER NIGHT WHEN I SAID I LOVE YOU U TOLD ME ALRIGHT SO YOU SEE HOW THAT FEEL..... SO I GUESS WHAT I'M ASKING IS DO YOU GUYS THINK I SHOULD JUST STOP TALKING TO HIM ALL TOGETHER AND LOSE ARE FRIENDSHIP...

You Made Me Cry (AGM)

You made me cry...
You tore me apart..
You left me in tears..
You've shattered my heart..

It wasn't your fault..
I guess it was me..
for love can't be forced..
Perhaps we weren't meant to be..

It still doesn't help..
now that i know..
Because for some reason..
my heart won't let go..
to get over you..
but you make it so hard..
with cute things you do..

I thought love was joy..
but i've got nothing to gain..
just sorrows..,tears..
and a little more pain..

The day the pain started ..
reality came too..
It was the day i realized ..

......I'LL NEVER BE WITH YOU.......

BROKEN HEAT

this has been the longest day man I've been having the blues all day and i guess it all comes from last night just cause of 3 little words that mean the world to me and i know i cant be mad at him cause he's not my man he is still my friend first but we always say i love you never been a time when we got off the fone and didn't say i love you we text it all the time and everything and for him to just tell me alright it just messed up than I've been texting him all day this was yesterday i was just checking up on my honey who i know just left his baby mama I'm a good friend and i was a better girlfriend to him and he knows that yes we been through are little whatever but he's still my heart for him to tell me alright after i say i love you is bull i don't care who's around i always tell you i love you and you play me like that he broke my heart with what he didn't say... I'm getting ready to let him go.....then A.D pissed me off boy i'm 8months do u really think i'mma get and run to every time u call me no i cant i'm waiting on this baby...

The news

So i was on twitter like always since i'm just waiting on the baby to be born... well i see something happen to MJ and i'm like dang i hope he gonna b ok den i turn to CNN then i see he went in for a cardiac arrest so ihat and run and ask my cousin who in RN wats that and she let me know that he stop breathing so right then we said r prays for him so im on CNN and tmz and tmz say mike id dead so i'm going through it like omg not uncle mike this cant be he's not gone thi is a joke a bad one but a joke so my lil bro who is in love wit MJ i'm not ready to tell him that mike is gone so i wait till all the news say thyats he dead so it's all over now that hes gone so i go and tell my lil bro the news and he just break down this is the first time that he has every dealt wit the death of a music icon see i Learnd mines when AALIYAH died i thought that was the worst day so now since the news came in he breaks down in his room and i just feel for him.....

june 27

BAD: A.D went through my fone and read my text and most of them were from AGM and all the i love yous and what i'mma do to you when i see you type stuff some pics that he should not have seen so we got in to this big azz fight i ending up cutting him on the face and all he hit me so i hit dat azz bac shot dont put yo hands no me all this while i'm still pregnant and all....
GOOD: i text AGM like i have something to tell you so he tell me his story and that shit mad me mad he kissed another girl his baby mama put him out of his house i wa happy that she put him that ment he got to come bac to the D cuz he moved 2 hours away to b there for the baby which is over due....
WORST: so i text him like "did you make it home" no text bac then i call him no call bac so i call off a number he dont know and what he do picks up so i wait a while and call him from my fone and we talk for a sec so i'm like "I LOVE YOU" he "like ok that shit pissed me off so i told him dont ever call my fone show up at my house i'm like i'm done wit to azz i been though to much witch yo azz for u to get bac home and to wont to act funny forget that i dont have the time for the kids games.....